Lyndsay Lewicki

It's March 1st today a new month of 2008 and a shitty way to start off the month at that. I've been a bit of a fuck up latley which I need to stop doing. I'm going to Half Alive tonight which will be fun I hope I'm not in the mood to be honest. and I wanted to hang out with Aimee but shes not going either because she works HOMO ! lol. Anyways I wish I still kept up with this thing life would be alot more orgnazied. I'm so tired. 

It was just my 16th birthday, and I went and got doble monroe peirced, then two days later my tounge. I need to stop with the peircings already because I don't want a metal face, I wanna go get the bar in my tounge changed because it's so long and hard to eat with. Anyways Winnipeg soon.

So i'm currently running low on money when I got paid like not to long ago I really need to learn how to save but it's Summer come on. I need smokes and boose how pathetic.

it's Summer time now and thing's have changed with friendships for me. me and Aime are no longer friends and truthfully I don't miss her because everything that I liked about her beffore changed into someone who I hate. I have been hanging out with White Rock quit alot with Kelsey and her friends which is fun, and I'm going to Winnipeg in 9 days baby !

20 days untill Winnipeg, Manitoba and what can I say I'm super excited to see all my friends again maybe meet some new ones. My friend Aimee might come with me which would be alot of fun I assume, even though the whole post thing but were good friends. I have a job at Burger King which is awsome too because I don't even like the food that much so it's great ! well anyways I'm off.

I went away to Vernon this weekend quit boring but I met two girls of nexopia I need a better way of making new friends honestly. Winnipeh July 5th so excited, I've been kinda pissed off at Aimee latley she's just well I think it takes two to make a friendship work whatever in the end she was worth nothing and I still have the friends I always will. FRIENDS BEFFORE CHICKS.

I hung out with Aimee till about 3 and then me and nate went to the rodeo,
I seen a bunch of my friends and ended up sleeping at Rosa's. My night 
could have been  alot better ... anyways I'm kinda well I wish I could
stop thinking about you.

isnt it supposed to be so yesterday ?

Morning LiveJournal readers, it's very early for me to be up concdering I don't have school but I have to get ready because I'm going to my bestfriend Nate's school today and after heading to the Cloverdale Rodeo which I'm so excited for. I'm catching the bus at 9:30 and getting of at the fleetwood mcdoanlds to meet Aimee and walking with her there, and then after school - Nate's mom might drive me, him and Brandi to the rodeo . Wow ride's make me like thrilled.

Today I went to all my classes at school so I'm pretty proud of my self then I get in the car and my mother flips her shit because she see's on parent conect I skipped a class everyday last week well it's okay I only skipped one or two this week. Tomorrow is the Cloverdale Rodeo; no I'm not going for the rodeo I'm going for the rides, greesy food, and friends I don't ever think I want to drink ! I hung out with Marianna after school and shared a few smokes and also talked to her mom then she decided her and Anthony would go to English Bay a two hour bus ride too far for me. My school is one of the only school's with no school tomorrow which suck's because no one can hang out except the lame drop out's and kids who don't go to school.

I havnt written much in my Nexopia blog latley because I have realized now the whole nexopia need's to no my whole life, So I might start usuing Live Journal again because only a selective few read it. Winnipeg is July 5th I'm excited to meet new people there .

Anyways I still got my mind on you and I just wish I could erase you from it.

I hung out with Paige today, she asked for a kiss I gave her one. I kinda felt akward kissing her I don't no why maybe it's cause I liked her for so long and things did'nt work out but who knows baby

I'm undecided about what I want, I'm not over my ex girlfriend who I completly fucked things up with but then again I'am. I'm happy she's happy and that were still friends I just think she acts different around me now which is obviously true. and there is this boy currently he's cute and sweet but I don't no WHAT I WANT !

I liked you, I didnt like you, I lost you, I wanted you, I hate you

I wish I knew I was the only one, and obviosuly that isnt true. I promised myself I woudl wait and im going even if it kill's me which honestly it might; you might end up pushing me away beffore I get a chance to show you how I truley feel, i could be your everything and anything and that's not an understatment

I’m getting so annoyed with people talking shit, I don’t have a personal life anymore because everyone seems to get involved some way some how not quit sure why they bother, in all honesty I’m not that exciting. I did something stupid on Saturday, idiotic if I might add but I’m not going to say I regret it because every time I say that I make myself upset. I’ve come to realize no one is worth anything anymore and I just wish there was ONE person who I could talk to and they wouldn’t tell a soul obviously I have not met that person yet.

I barley ever write in here anymore, and I used to alot.
I have a bladder infection

valentines day everyone

There is so much going on with me right now, well not really thing’s are good. I get to see my best friend everyday and such and there is currently no drama from what I no. Most of the people I have been hanging out with are the people I would like to keep in my life. I miss nate so much, and I kinda also Winnipeg ugh, and my dad is such an asshole

There is so much I wish I could write about, but I don’t even have enough time. My friends mean everything to me they really do im always here for them I listen to their problems and I never mention mine but it’s starting to get to me, I have problems of my own and nobody seems to listen or care.

I have started talking to a boy who makes me smile, but he lives far away so there is no point getting attached in any way !! just I wish I could find someone here.

i love you more then I did beffore